Helpless..

I had gone to mainstreet today with my mil. Mainstreet is one of the main roads in the Pune city always crowded, full of activity and hustle bustle. So we were passing the renowned Marzorin , and outside there was this beggar in just one tattered shawl. Well, there is usually a gang of beggars beseeching for alms in that particular vicinity, but this beggar was unlike the rest. He was an old, frail, enervated, shaky man. He was pleading each and every passerby to help him but nobody turned back to give him a second glance. There were people dressed smartly in trendy garments displaying youth and vivacity. This presented such a stark contrast to the old beggar. What affected me the most however was the fact that he was crying. He was so helpless, deprived and desperately in need, but nobody had the heart or the patience or the time to stop, give him a penny and move on. I was one of the nobody. I cdnt help him coz at that time i didnt have any money on me. My heart loathed me. I identified with his helplessness. So many times i have felt the same,vulnerable, feeble, clueless and unhappy, begging for help, for love, for concern. The only difference was that i knew that i have my family and friends to support me, whereas he didnt have anyone to look upto for love. I wish i could have helped him but sometimes you have just got to leave it on Allah.

Lost!!!

I really speculate at the way i live my own life. I mean i know that this is not what i want or that this is not what i do or that i dont want it like that or whatever but i land up doing just that and then i land up stuck and lost in life. It makes me miserable and ill and i suffer from low self esteem, i am stressed and then i dont even get sleep. I wish i knew how to sort this out. Maybe the answer is very simple but i guess i do not have the eyes to see it. I am sounding so pessimistic but that's exactly how i feel. On an optimistic note this is like an adventure . I am learning from this , how to tackle the crisis in life. Coz life is never goin to be simple and i would anyways sit and complain if life was'nt challenging enough. So i dont think there's any point in writing all this but nevertheless ,since i have already written i shall let it be.

A Belief.

Life is a Rope that Swings us through Hope, Always believe today is much better than Yesterday and tomorrow will be Best than Today! Life gives Answers in Three ways, It says YES and gives whatever u Want,It says NO and gives u something Better, It says Wait and gives u the Best~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Don't just Dream. Live your Dream.

What do you call people who are afraid of Santa Claus?
Ans-'Claustrophobic.' Hehehehehe.....

After Some Time...

So after a series of conflicts of the mind, heart and soul i am back again writing on my blog. Well my first day of work was a real experience, not that i have a lack of experiences, but this was a different one. When i entered the building {the place where i shall be working} i became me, the real me, i mean it was only my true identity, i was not playing any other role, just myself. I totally forgot where i have come from, where i have to go...it was just the present...a very new feeling, unsullied, and genuine. Well, i was standing in the balcony on the third floor which was giving me a crystal clear view of the magnificient V.M.Gany Sports Complex. It was looking lush green,unsoiled spotless. The sprinklers were doing their job and the sight was beggaring description. The sky was cerulean. I was enjoying the vista, when i heard sounds resembling the chirping of birds. And then suddenly from beneath the canopy of trees came a group of girls in blue uniform running wildly. They had to touch the wall and go back. They resembled a flock of birds wild, happy and free. It was a delightful scene. I comprehended the veracity of happiness in those 5 seconds, and i deciphered the meaning of life. One girl fell, she was trampled over by the others who wanted to touch the wall and come first, some were shocked and just stood there staring, a few bent down to help her up. Well.... isnt this what life is all about in a nutshell?

Rickshawalaaaaaaaassss!!!!!

I walk down the stinking road opposite the college gate and reach the Rickshaw stand. ''Khaali hai?'' The rickshawala asks me,''kidhar jaane ka?'' I reply, ''Rasta peth.'' He tells me,'' aage poocho khali nahi hai,'' despite the rickshaw being totally empty. Now comeon guys get a grip. I think i should do a research on the psychology of these rickshawalas. Tarannum, hats off to you babes for showing that rickshawala good. Thankfully all can't see the reallyyyyyyy loutish way and hear the abusive language my MIL uses when a rickshawala denies to take her to her destination. Now with the hike in the prices of petrol the rickshaw meter is going to increase and so is the 'bhav' of these rickshawalas. Well we shall just wait and watch then. Till then i'll have to do the same thing, put out my hand and scream,''rickshaw!!!!!!!''

Love Is In The Air

I saw fanaa. I think it is a very romantic movie. Its amazing how the actors display the emotion of love. I could actually feel the sensation and passion each time Aamir and Kajol....u know..dot dot dot..... Aamir is sooooooo cute. The people of Gujrat are indeed missing something. Cant life be like the one shown in movies or like the one written in Mills and Boons. Life seems so damn hard in reality. But the sentiment of love in movies can never match the one in real life. Love in real life is a very different attitude. It is all about compromise and the like. It is about surrendering urself ur respect and aspirations and all for the person u love. It is about being unconditional. Well, i wouldn't mind having a little adventure in my love life. It peppers up the whole experience. I hope the concerned get the hint. WINK. Hey mifrah, wht do u think about this babes? U know Mifrah, i get totally 'lost' when Aamir khan speaks in the movie...''Tere ishq mein meri jaan fanaa ho jaye..''ooooooooooooooohhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!

For My Friends.

Hey Anisa and Miffy this one is for u guys. Thanx for everything. I looooooooooove u.

What A Relief!!!!!

Thank god, i went to college. It indeed was a great relief. Finally i see some prospects of a job. I had a heart to heart talk with my friend. So much of my confusion cleared away. It is indeed a blessing to have friends who care and understand. It is so true, the saying, that 'you are not known by your capabilities but by the choices you make.' We are faced daily by choices, one right and the other wrong. It depends on our maturity and understanding which one we choose. The supposedly right choices are indeed difficult to make. But sometimes you just have got to let things be. You cant afford to make everyone happy coz not all are going to be happy anyways. There are some who are just not satisfied whatever you do. And i totally despise people who dont have the sense to talk. I mean there are certain ways of getting your things done, there are certain ways of speaking. Hasn't everyone heard about the politeness principles? I wish people would start talking properly to me, i wish they would start taking me seriously, i wish all would stop taking me for granted. I am NOT a good for nothing person. All my talents and virtues are going waste. Guess its time for me to make the choice. Hey anisa,thanx babes i owe u one.

OH GOD PLEASE HELP ME!!!

I came back yesterday from that godforsaken raviwar peth(i dont know why i went there in the first place , but anyways i had no choice). I laid down on my bed with all those horrible things ravaging my brain, somehow i tried to push them all aside and fall asleep and i did so successfully when at around 12.35 my cell rang. I was still in my sleep and was wondering why the hell is the alarm ringing now when i had timed it for 6.00 in the morning but then i realized it was a fone call. Very sleepily i answered 'halloooo'' and then what i heard totally rattled my nerves. Why does this happen to me? As is obvious all my sleep vanished and try as much as i could i didnt get it back. I told myself ''u cant do anything now its past midnight try and sleep...'' I concentrated hard and pushed those ugly thoughts aside, fell asleep but it was accompanied with a series of nightmares. I got up in the morning tired hopeless disturbed sick......... So now i have to face the world. I tell myself,''get ready u have to do this.'' And here i am writting this article trying to relive myself a little. Oh god please help me. Please give me the strength to endure this.

Moment of Discovery

I was sitting in the parking lot of a building in the afternoon and watching the rain drizzle coolly on the panoramic landscape. It looked very serene and tranquil but unfortunately my mind was not at peace, i mean there was so much running inside my brain. I recalled the moment when i was in college one day waiting for my friends to come, it was a hot but windy afternoon and my mind was so much composed and unflustered. I had really enjoyed those 15 minutes sipping lemon juice under the shade of the banyan tree. So much of our emotions depend on the state of our mind. I wish i could prolong those 15 minutes into a lifetime. Very rarely do i find myself unpreturbed. I really miss those carefree days. I miss myself my true self, somewhere in this rush i have just lost me. I do retrieve some traits of myself but then that is very uncommon. Change however is inevitable and well things happen for the best, if i take it all in a positive way. But then how postive can i be. Things do get weary. Well we will just wait and watch then.

THOUGHT OF SOMEONE ELSE'S MIND

''TO ERR IS HUMAN,TO FORGIVE IS NOT MY POLICY.''

Jheengar ki jhai jhai...

The pest control guy had come home today. Its indeed wonderful to see the new, less painstaking and odourfree methods of getting rid of cockroaches. Keep up the good work. Cockroaches better watch out! By the ways isnt that a great pose?

Words Of Wisdom

I went to city bakery today and there i saw this blackboard placed on a table in the corner and on it were written these words of wisdom,''Marry not the one who you want to live with but the one who you cannot live without..you will be sorry anyways.'' Makes sense.

Its TIME.....

Hey Mifrah its time we stopped procrastinating...

ATTITUDES !!!!!!!!!!!

It really sucks when people show major attitudes. I dont understand why does anyone need to show how very important they are and that the world cannot exist without them, oh god!!!!! Why the hell do i have to face so much attitude. Let me qoute, 'mere jaisi beti behen bahu biwi aur saas kahi bhi nahi milegi. Mere se achchi koi nahi duniyaa me ....dhoond ke batao.'' GROCE!!!! Doesn't this mean that the person is living in a very false world of one's own ideas. What about how u project urself to others ? There is too much i want to write about this but certain things are restraining me. Perhaps i can't put into words how disgusted i feel.YUK.

To The Mumbai Nagariya.

This is 'aamchi mumbai''. Mumbai was lashed with severe rains last year but the spirit of the people in mumbai helped them out of all blues. That's what's commendable among the 'mumbaiyaas', their true and free spirit. This year even the rains have started early and are already rising in their fury, but so what, the spirit will save the day. ''Shola hai yaa hai bijuriya,dil ki bajariyaa mumbai nagariyaa.''