Moment of Discovery

I was sitting in the parking lot of a building in the afternoon and watching the rain drizzle coolly on the panoramic landscape. It looked very serene and tranquil but unfortunately my mind was not at peace, i mean there was so much running inside my brain. I recalled the moment when i was in college one day waiting for my friends to come, it was a hot but windy afternoon and my mind was so much composed and unflustered. I had really enjoyed those 15 minutes sipping lemon juice under the shade of the banyan tree. So much of our emotions depend on the state of our mind. I wish i could prolong those 15 minutes into a lifetime. Very rarely do i find myself unpreturbed. I really miss those carefree days. I miss myself my true self, somewhere in this rush i have just lost me. I do retrieve some traits of myself but then that is very uncommon. Change however is inevitable and well things happen for the best, if i take it all in a positive way. But then how postive can i be. Things do get weary. Well we will just wait and watch then.