OH GOD PLEASE HELP ME!!!

I came back yesterday from that godforsaken raviwar peth(i dont know why i went there in the first place , but anyways i had no choice). I laid down on my bed with all those horrible things ravaging my brain, somehow i tried to push them all aside and fall asleep and i did so successfully when at around 12.35 my cell rang. I was still in my sleep and was wondering why the hell is the alarm ringing now when i had timed it for 6.00 in the morning but then i realized it was a fone call. Very sleepily i answered 'halloooo'' and then what i heard totally rattled my nerves. Why does this happen to me? As is obvious all my sleep vanished and try as much as i could i didnt get it back. I told myself ''u cant do anything now its past midnight try and sleep...'' I concentrated hard and pushed those ugly thoughts aside, fell asleep but it was accompanied with a series of nightmares. I got up in the morning tired hopeless disturbed sick......... So now i have to face the world. I tell myself,''get ready u have to do this.'' And here i am writting this article trying to relive myself a little. Oh god please help me. Please give me the strength to endure this.